I did what I always wanted.

I did what I always wanted. I got my stuff together, I kicked my anxiety in the face and I got up and moved. I didn’t just move to a small town or a slightly bigger city, I moved to the largest city in the UK. The busiest city; the most anxiety-provoking city I could have chosen. I moved to 'the big smoke'. I was scared, but that was the whole point. I needed to be. I had to push myself and ask myself what was I going to lose. The answer; nothing, I lost nothing. But I gained something; confidence. It’s okay to be scared or to feel lost. But you can’t hide. If we always knew what was around the corner then we’d never do anything. If bad times never happened we’d never appreciate the good times. They out weigh one another.

I’m only young but I’m learning. I’m learning that things may appear scary at times but really there’s nothing to be scared of, because being scared doesn’t help. Worrying doesn’t help. You can’t be happy if you’re always concerned about what other people think of you, always getting caught up on other people’s opinions of yourself. The only real opinion that matters is you. If you think something is right, then you stand your ground and you hold that view. Don’t let others bring you down. Life is too short to be concerned about the people that hurt you. These people need to be taken out of the picture. Because these people are only harming you, they’re not helping you to grow and prosper.

You need to give yourself a break. People like you, some people even more than like you, they love you. So stop dwelling on them. Stop dwelling on these negative thoughts. If you want something you just have to put that fear aside and go for it. I want to be successful and I want to help. So I put my fears aside and I tried. These actions recently lead me to my next steps on my journey. I got the job. I’m now working for Hartwig Care Ltd. And I’m going to make a difference. I’m going to help. If all goes to plan I have my two days of intense training this coming weekend and even though I’m scared, I’m excited and I’m proud. I’m proud that for once I didn’t let my anxiety ride in the drivers seat. I’m proud that I set myself a goal and I achieved it. I always knew deep down I could do it but I was always too scared to try, to put myself out there. However life is all about challenging yourself and taking each day in your stride and learning from every second of your existence. So please don’t be scared. Don’t let your fears run your life.